Monday, October 20, 2008
Ahhh…the change of seasons. The leaves in all of their autumn splendor, the crisp fall air, the buzz of the holidays…oh yeah…and all of the clothes from last season that don’t freakin fit! Traumatic. Every SIF can relate to what I’m about to say. As we gain and lose weight, we tend to make a crucial SIF error. Rule #2315…don’t throw away the fat clothes! Yes, it’s nice to think that once we’ve lost the weight that we will not in fact “find” it again. Unfortunately, it always finds it’s way back to us via our thighs and our closets. Riddle me this…I look at myself every day in the mirror. I’m no Angelina Jolie but she can’t hope to be this good looking. Anyway, as I stare at myself, I always look for signs that I am may be putting on the pounds. Either I have trick mirrors or Steve Wonders vision bcs I just don’t see it coming! Nope. I look for an extra chin, a neck roll, a banana roll or any sort of roll that shouldn’t be there. Don’t see a thing. Perhaps denial. Perhaps not. It’s not until I switch out last seasons clothing that all hell breaks loose!
If there’s one thing every SIF knows it’s how “those pants” use to fit. I am no exception to this rule. Today was our first “cold” day here on the beach…(can’t wear flip flops). So I reached into the closet for my black cords. When I last left them, they were hanging off of me. So I guess part of me knew to grab them bcs they would either make my day or confirm what my lying ass mirror would not. The latter would be the case. They certainly fit. However, that’s not a good thing when they are 2 sizes bigger than you thought you wore! F’n mirror! Where is the disconnect between what I see and reality? Have I trained my eyes to see what I want them to see? All of my “friends” tell me I look great. Liars…all liars. Perhaps I need to break out my sales skills on them…”When you say I look great what do you mean? Spill it bitches.” I tend leave off the latter portion when actually making a sales call. It’s not nice to call the clients bitches. I reserve that for my friends. Anyway, so I stood in my closet frozen with shock. Part of me was happy that I had something to wear and the other part of me was apparently alot bigger than I remembered! So I did what any SIF would do…I found a nice top to match my pants and took my big ass to work.
More trauma is on the horizon. I have yet to pull down the rest of my fall clothing. Nothing good can come of this. I must have 20 pairs of cute, viable, fall pants. Apparently put there by someone I haven’t seen in a while! As you might expect, I have a plan. A plan that involves me not eating. While never a good plan, a much needed one. I’m out of control. The “season” doesn’t help the situation. Allow me to describe fall with the first words that come to a SIF’s mind: Halloween candy, Thanksgiving dinner, Christmas cookies and my personal favorite…New Years Resolutions! So basically it’s…eat, eat, eat and plan to never eat again. If I were to take those words and form a plan, I’d be as fat if not fatter until Jan 1st. While I would enjoying eating my way from September to December I fear I need a more viable plan. Like only eating foods that rhyme with skinny or chewing my food and spitting it out. Something like that. In the meantime, I’m getting a new mirror. A non-lying one. Perhaps one of those circus mirrors.